How the sun went down...

I really just don't want to deal with it anymore or have to constantly worry about what life is going to try and knock me down with any more. It's like when something goes great, ten more things happen that drown out all that just started looking up.

I should really just stick to myself and not trust, rely, or speak what is going through my mind to anyone. For some reason everyone else finds out and therefore it's no long a secret or a personal thought.

Boss! HA! That's funny!

Is it all bosses jobs to act like they are better than you and know so much more than you do?
I swear when things aren't going their way, they take it out on you no matter if it is your fault or not. Yet if something goes great, you bet your ass that you rarely hear a "good job" or "well done" on your behalf. And then you have those times when they have no idea how something works because they are upper-level employees who don't feel the need to pay attention, so who do they come to? Yours truly! Yep that's right, the little man on the totem pole has to have knowledge of everything! It doesn't matter if it pertains to the job they were hired and trained for or not!

Gotta love that thing we call a "professional" life!

Blah blahing

It's all just complete craziness of a world that I like to call my life. Sometimes it is as if one minuscule thing changes around me, it completely throws off my entire day.

Oh if more people would just sing a little we could seriously cut back on the animosity in this place I like to call my life!!!

A New Direction?

Job interview today! Wish me luck!

Can't take all the b.s. of the "big wigs" any more. I mean come on now, how can you try to tell us what to do when you've never been to the office and actually have seen the size of this place!

Crazy for the Crazies!

Another day another dollar. This has been a never ending week, thankfully Friday is finally here. With sun out and as the second day of Spring here (can't you tell with the snow on the ground?), it seems to bring out the crazies out of the woodwork. I think I've gotten the weirdest phone calls and walk-ins today compared to some of the fullest moon days. If this is showcase for what the"warm" time is like, I should just bail out now and call in sick for the season.

Are you Irish today?

It cracks me up how may people are "Irish" today! Even though I at times "celebrate" this holiday, I am still part Irish every day....does that mean that I should be cherished even more on this day?!? Oh boy the craziness that will be going on all around this lovely college town I call home! I remember the days of having little responsibility and being able to drink all day, take a nap, eat, and then go and party all trough the night...then of course I didn't really have bills so that gave me more money to do all that partying too.

p.s. I think I'm finally over that death-bed sickness and only have a trace of the stuffy nose left! Woooooooo-hooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!

Just call me a klutz!

While walking from where the bus drops me off to work ( about a block and a half) I somehow managed to fall not once but twice! To make matters worse I spilt my coffee all over the place without so much as have taken a sip yet. So that right there was not something that put me in any type of cheerful mood.

The first time I went down my knee and caught me so it wasn't that bad, though my knee still kind of stings. Getting up was a bit of a struggle seeing as I almost put a hole in my pants. So trying trying to be smart about the rest of the walk, I crossed the street because i thought there was less ice over there. Oh was I wrong; very, very wrong in deed! There was actually more ice there which in turn came my second fall. This time was no laughing matter because both my feet came out from underneath me sending me straight to to ground.

Of course I tried to catch myself and try not to hit that hard, but of course it wasn't that easy and my wrist bent in a way I didn't think possible. So I must of lied there all sprawled out on the sidewalk;k for a couple of minutes with coffee and my bag all around me before I finally convinced myself to at least try to sit up and go from there. Meanwhile at least three or four cars passed by me and not one slowed down, much less stop to see if I was okay. It's like I was just some invisible person that no one wanted to deal with.

I eventually got myself up and continued on my way to work, holding back the tears that were burning the inside of my eyelids. So me being the stubborn person I've always been, I didn't go right to the hospital but instead tried to ignore the pain and write off the fall as minor. Yeah well that only lasted a couple oh hours when the pain got unbearable. so, now there I was in the hospital having the technician bending and twisting my hand to get that "perfect" x-ray picture.

So after all is said and done, here I am mickey-mouse typing a blog and pissy my medicine makes me loopy so therefor I can't take it while at work. Sometimes I seriously wonder if things like this will stop happening to me!

Knocked Around...and then some

So I'm finally back and going after having every sickness under the sun last week. Most of my friends and coworkers have been getting either a sinus infection, bronchitis, or some type of flu that knocked them on the azzes for a few days. After seeing all these things going around for over the last couple of weeks, I was sure that if it hadn't hit me yet I was going to be lucky enough to not catch anything. After all since quitting smoking months ago, I hadn't gotten sick at all, and believe me when I say for me, that's really good.

Well I couldn't not have been more wrong than I have ever had been before. While visiting my mom and sister two weekends ago I started not feeling to good but just thought it was a minor cold from the constant change in temperature. I ended up leaving earlier than I wanted to to make the 2 1/2 hour drive home with a stop or two on the way; which by the way made my trip turn into a 5 hour one. By the time I finally got home, all I wanted to do was go to bed and sleep off the feeling of weariness. This of course wasn't as easy as I thought it would be, and lay there tossing and turning and in turn feeling worse. I ended up waking up early (as in before the sun even thought to come out) and realizing I had no voice and feeling very nauseous and overall that complete crap. So I had to take that step and email (since I couldn't talk) my boss and a coworker to let them know that there was no way I'd be making it into the office that day. Well as the day went on, I got sicker and weaker; then so forth to the next day and so on.It turns out that I had everything above mentioned, on top of having a couple of bad asthma attacks due to being do sick. So I ended up missing all week of work (well okay was forced to go in on Friday or I would be "reprimanded" by the big wigs). Let me just tell you how much I was was peeved and ended up napping on and off at the office because I still wasn't fully well, but mostly because I was "showing" them that I was in protest for being forced to work when I clearly was in no shape to be out of bed, and especially not at work where I deal with people all day.

Now it's Monday and I'm almost better, though I wouldn't have objected to another day of rest and relaxation. I'm eating again, which is a really good thing considering I did way too little of that last week; I'm also able to get up and down the stairs at my house without completely loosing my breath and having to rest in between each trip I had to make. And yes, in case you are wondering, I did make a visit to the doctors but of course they are complete idiots and if they don't know what is wrong they seem to give you amoxicillian and tell you to check back in in about a week for a checkup. Sometimes I really think that I'm in the wrong profession, because I'm sure I could manage to tell people a general answer and get paid twenty-something an hour to do so.

No need for that...

So I guess I was wrong to think that people will change and leave what is in the past there. After all that we have been through in our lives, you would think that all that anyone would want to do it get on with life and stop hurting one another. The worse of it all is when that person that hurts you is someone who is supposed to take care of you and protect you. Family can break you but I don't understand why they would want to....

Polar Bear Jump

Well it's almost that time again to take the plunge into freezing cold water in the middle of February. It's only about a week and half away and the jitters haven't quite hit me yet, surprisingly of course. The only thing that might explain it is that this will be my second year taking the plunge. Since last year was warmer than usual (air 27 degrees; water 38 degrees), I must admit it is a little intimidating because I don't think we'll be that lucky again.
Definitely if you get a chance, check out pbjump.com and see how much fun it is and the adorable kids we are raising money for...

Welcome to Upstate NY

So today was the first gorgeous day of the year, it reached 62 here...I just wish it would stay like this. I mean what is better than 60 degree weather in the beginning of January, it really doesn't get much better than that. Of course though, anyone living in upstate NY knows that there are two seasons: winter and summer (which only lasts about 4 months of the year), which means that come next week we will be back to sub-zero temperatures yet again....Gotta love this place I call my home...And what makes it even better, I am of course stuck inside on this beautiful day and not out enjoying the sunshine and warmth....

Been Awhile

So I know it's been awhile since I've written anything, but you all know how it is with the busy holiday season. And then on top of that with my birthday bash (which I'll fill you in another time) and friends and their kids...yeah it was a bit overwhelming. Thankfully it has all finally settled down to where I feel like I have a minute to breathe and not get stressed as much. Then with the horribly cold whether NY has been getting, all it makes me want to do is curl up in my pjs and vegge out watching movies. You keep hearing about this global warming thing, but lately it seems like everything is freezing up. I mean come on now....even the southern states are dropping into the 30s and 40s now.
Well hopefully there will be more to come and more often too...keep looking...